Well, I’m back in Kingston, my vacation over. I have a bit of a tan, the weather isn’t bad, and I get to see my friends again. I miss Florida already, and my parents and sister too, of course. Everything went fine over here while I was gone; my kitty was well looked-after thanks to my friend Cyndi, and my landlord.
Before I forget, I should add a belated final list from the beach:
- 1 octopus. Not kidding! I think he was less than a foot in length, including tentacles, but it’s very strange to see one on the beach there.
- 1 perfect sand dollar. Considering the lack of seashells this year, and the lack even on that last day, this was a veritable Beautiful Blue, if you know what I mean. It was gorgeous, and absolutely perfect. I ended up accidentally breaking it (ahh, how beauty is fragile….. take note, boys haha), replacing batteries in my camera to capture my last sunset of the vacation….. but I got to enjoy its beauty while it lasted so I’m still happy about it. Plus, I have no idea how I would have transported it back home. haha.
- many ex-horseshoe crabs
- a lot of seaweed (the tubular kind as well) as it’d been windy for a couple days by then
- a few regular crabs including a tiny tiny one….. all ex-crabs, but still.
- 1 gorgeous setting Sun
Now that I’m home again, I’m trying to keep myself positive, but it’s a little hard when you’ve just gotten used to spending time with a family that keeps you constantly busy. I’m having to clean this place up as I’ve let it become a mess, I’m having to sort myself out for classes, and I’m having to finish my grad school applications….. none of which is that happy-making. I mean, I should be happy to further my education, but it’s a big change….. and though I’m a fan of new things, big changes are still a bit nerve-wracking. I’m also not looking forward to moving away from so many good friends I’ve made here. I’m not being all doomsdayish or anything; I doubt I’ll be a loner when I get there or anything, it just will be sad saying goodbye to people I’ve come to know so well. It’s not like high school, where there were maybe 4 or 5 close friends, and the rest merely casual friends. I’ve always been very selective about people I spend time with, and I guess my coming here happened to introduce me to people with more in common with me than back then. Okay, I’m being sappy, someone smack me upside the head. At least I’m being honest. This is the main reason I was a bit sad tonight. Much like my friend Andrew said, “I’m tired and a little sad, but not unhappy.” I agree, though for much different reasons. I hope you’re feeling better too, Andrew, if you’re reading this…..
Well, I’m just along for the ride. To quote a role model of mine, Jimmy Buffett, “If it doesn’t work out there’ll never be any doubt, that the pleasure was worth all the pain.” I was just searching for a good Jimmy quote to put in there (as I’m sure many of his would do just as well), and I found a quotations site that suggests other quotes you might like based on other people’s tastes….. anyway I just read this one and it made me laugh, but it’s true:
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
— Neil Gaiman (English born American Novelist, Journalist, Screenwriter, Children’s author and Comics writer of American Gods, amongst many others, b.1960)
Anyway, funny how that was recommended for a Jimmy Buffett quote fan….. !
Something tells me to keep writing, so I guess I will. I’m not sure what I’m trying to get at here, and maybe I’m just rambling. Maybe I’ll explain why I’m such a fan of Jimmy Buffett.
Some call Jimmy a hedonist. Some call him a country singer in a perpetual midlife crisis. Some just call him Bubba. I call him inspiration. See, Jimmy lives the life a lot of us dream of living, and he somehow got there without unrivalled vocal talent — at least not like others in the business who don’t get 1/100th of the fame he does. It gives people like me hope. His two biggest talents (that I can tell), are as a businessman and a storyteller. If you’ve read any of his books, you’ll understand what I mean. The characters are typically searching for a way to a new life — to skirt conformity and glide along on the waves life created for us to surf on. There are a variety of social rejects met along the way, or “fruitcakes” as Jimmy affectionately calls them, who serve as reminders that life can be enjoyed in more ways that the typical. In fact, it’s clear he prefers this sort of company, since he, himself, is one of them. He’s the type to get mad at cinema concession stands for carrying jumbo-sized everything, but not his precious Junior Mints. He’s the type to give kudos to the guy rollerskating naked through a crosswalk in the middle of the week. Living life to the fullest seems to be his motto. He’s done quite well with his message; he’s a multi-millionaire, constantly one of the highest-grossing entertainers, and he’s got a fanbase quite possibly as devoted and passionate as the Rolling Stones’. It seems people like his message. Live life to the fullest. And hey, “if it doesn’t work out there’ll never be any doubt, that the pleasure was worth all the pain.”
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(For anyone interested, the Jimmy quote I used is from the song “The Weather Is Here, Wish You Were Beautiful”….. hehe)…..