Yay, I’m excited. Today at 3:40, I’ll be going for my birthday massage 🙂
My birthday was a month ago, but it’s really been the first time I’ve had time during the week to use it. It’ll be a nice treat for sure.
It’s weird weather again today, like it’s Fall already. Clouds come and you actually shiver a bit. You avoid walking in the shade. Guhh, winter’s coming. I’ll try to enjoy Fall first though.
can you see the mountains for the clouds?
I look down on this rural painted valley
and cannot distinguish
oh I know the sight well
Mount Airy rising like a throne
above all else
solid and stoic, like a rook
signalling a new state
the land of barren beige roads
the ones that reflect the Sun
in continuous arcs, like rainbows
leading us to golden shores
King Airy — the guide to heaven’s door
Copyright L.M. 2007. (written in Virginia a bit, mostly in North Carolina, on way to Florida.).
I took solace in the tears the moon gave me
pretending they were for you
it was full tonight and I passed the site
the cruel arena
I couldn’t find a plan so I kept going
and wouldn’t you know? I slept
while my tears dried on my cheeks
while I stood there staring at the moon
yes, I slept,
everything reduced to numbness
all the passion and anger
slept tonight in my pain
reciting my own words and those of ____
just so I can swallow some air
I’ve been breathing dirt for days now
I can’t feel anymore but that’s okay
it’s better than feeling awake
would you settle near me and watch me
so when I choke there’s a reason
since the scene never plays itself out
if it makes any sense at all
may I be removed? I thought I saw a star
I’m sure I did in my eyes
and the long clouds dripping dip through the moon
I watch behind the dead tree
magnificent as the Seven’s and just as achingly cursed
spelling my letters as I read them
I couldn’t find the keys in the scramble
the door was wide open and I walked into it
beginning with my mind
and ending with my feet
I can’t cry for you
I used to be much better
can’t slow my eyes getting wetter
so let me cry for the moon
Finished: 6:20 a.m., Sunday, November 25th, 2007.
Copyright L.M. 2007.
The sky was really cool today.
I never quite know how the weather’s going to be when I get up, even if I check my Weather Network toolbar thingy on my computer, so it’s always a bit of a gamble in terms of coat choice this time of year. I went with my brown Fall jacket, and was glad of it. As soon as I opened the door I was greeted with a warm cool breeze (cool because it’s Fall and it’s expected to be a bit cool, and warm because it had an unexpected warmth still left in it). Over the park trees and over the Queen’s buildings, I could see in the distance blue clouds. That nice, rich Russian Blue Cat kinda blue. The kind, had it been cold outside, you would have expected to be delivering snow. Instead, the sun was shining, the wind fiesty, and it was a perfect beginning to the day.
I actually was slightly resenting the fact that I had class to attend, because I just felt like walking around listening to my music all day 🙂 I might still do that, for a bit at least. I’ve had an overall pretty crummy past few days, though I shouldn’t complain as it’s probably mostly my own fault! Haha, that’s life. But nothing makes me feel better when I’m down than a good walk. It makes me wonder about next year; if I move, I’ll have to think about that when deciding where to live…..
Yes, now I’m thinking about that, I definitely need to walk. Definitely time to go down to the water: windy, sunny, cloudy, somewhat warm (season-considering), and some lifey stuff to think about……
Off I go….. 🙂
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